SALP

You've lost track of time.  It's been a very long time. WHAT. ERRR.  Do you still remember why you put up this blog in the first place? --- To save your sanity.  You've shed tears for the longest time.  You've been bored for the longest time.  You've been trying to entertain yourself for the longest time.  You've let yourself forget (temporarily) all the things you failed to do in life; the disappoinments.  You've let yourself go crazy over Kpop music and idols you don't even understand (I really liked them though).   You've tried almost everything to keep yourself occupied.  You've tried almost everything to be like a stone.  Omg so corny.  Mmmhuh yes, a stone (or rock, whichever pleases) -- hard, tough.  But again, guess what?  You're back to square one.  Your heart aches.  You feel like you're being crushed/crumbled to pieces inside.  You've actually forgotten how bad it feels like; how painful it feels like --- to be in the same situation all over again.  You don't even remember how bruised you were when it happened. You hate yourself for being so weak.  You hate yourself for easily giving up on things.